For the past year my mind often, and when I say often it means every day, wonders about where I will be in the next 5 years. One of my biggest concerns is not knowing the future. I like planning and knowing everything that is going to happen, and having a sense of unknown scares me, a lot. I look at so many successful, intelligent, amazing people who have amazing jobs and families, and I think about what it was like to get to the place where they are now. Was it what they had planned? Did they fail? Did they try again after they failed? How did they do so well in the end? So many questions and thoughts run through my head that it is no wonder I forget as much as I do. Well, it is about time to put my thoughts to good use and blog about it! :)
I usually joke about it, but my addiction is looking at blogs. I love blogs, blogs, blogs! It's where I get my inspiration to work harder and learn more about photography. Today when I look at what all I have to learn, I feel so overwhelmed that I have no idea where to start. Then suddenly my mind goes through all the things I could be doing instead of feeling overwhelmed and there I am again, feeling overwhelmed. Well, God has a way of letting you know everything is going to be just fine. I recently bought the book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young, and I have grown to love it more and more every day. Today confirmed exactly what I love about this book. It has a strange and amazing way of being exactly what I need to hear on the exact day.
It is 1 o'clock in the morning and I am writing this because I cannot get it out of my head. I had just hung up the phone with Wes and I was telling him about how I felt about my future in photography and that whatever God wants is what will be. This is amazing. I open my book and it's the devotion for February 26th. This is what it says, word for word:
"I am leading you , step by step, through your life. Hold My hand in trusting dependence, letting Me guide you through this day. Your future looks uncertain and feels flimsy -- even precarious. That is how it should be. Secret things belong tot he Lord, and future things are secret things. When you try to figure out the future, you are grasping at the things that are Mine. This, like all forms of worry, is an act of rebellion: doubting My promises to care for you.
Whenever you find yourself worrying about the future, repent and return to Me. I will show you the next step forward, and the one after that, and the one after that. Relax and enjoy the journey in My Presence, trusting Me to open up the way before you as you go."
